let me tell yall what happened after the first post.

so after i offed the com i studied history abit and then i watched da4 chang2 jin1 and tian2 mi4 feng1 bao4 and i went out to go with my mama to her course.

so i met my mama at my meimei's school, and we went to bugis but after i got off the bus i felt like vomiting but that is not important.we had lunch and also bought my mummy's presents for her kids in the kindergarten at a value dollar store. and i bought a gun. a revolver to be exact. just that the turning thing thing cannot come out cos its a kids gun. but anw, i bought it and 2 bows. one for my meimei and one for me. but i ralised my jiejie doesnt have anything so i decided to give her the bow and i kept the gun.

then we went to my mama's course place and i went in feeling awkward and such. but i still went it. i sat down and then my mummy shifted some of the things on the table so that me and my meimei could sit there. then this other woman who i din really like came over and sat near to me. then the lecturer came over and said in a quite fierce voice about who shifted her things and such and my mummy had to put the things back.

i felt humiliated i tell you, i did. she spoke in such a tone no teacher in my life have ever spoke to me in before. i was affected. very greatly. i felt upset and i didn't like it. not at all. i felt upset for myself, and for my mother. so, in a fit of anger and upsetness, i left the place. i packed up, asked my meimei to do the same, said somethings about where i'll be going to to my mother and i left. i just left. i went to the national library just opposite the place. and on my way there, my mummy called me. she told me that the lecturer wasnt speaking to me, she was speaking to the other woman there but i din care. she had hurt me already and with unbalanced emotions, i cried. i didnt stop until i reached the library. my sis said that she din understand why i cried, but i dun know either.

lately, i am unable to control my emotions very well like how i do at the rest of the year. i just cry for the slightest sad things that happen to me. it is because of the EOYS i guess, the stress i am putting on myself. but i do not cry because i din get good results. that is not me.

anw, i cooled down and later my mummy sent me a message and i cried again. but anw, i was able to balance everything out again and that is the only reason why i am able to blog about this so calmly now. i am not crying for your info. (:

i read alot at the library. da4 chang2 jin1, liang2 zhu4, cang1 tian1 you3 lei4 and many more. and later i came back and i started shooting my meimei's soft toy tortise with my gun. and i only missed twice out of 6 X 7 times. =D

i like my gun and i miss my squadmates. i want to be back in school quickly.