oh i really should be studying now. afterall, history's on monday but i cannot resist the temptation of blogging and so i am here. i am a really good girl you know. i studied for erm, erm... 4 hours straight on 2 ppts. i used one hour for the 'reasons for western colonisation in SEA' page in the first ppt on colonialism. lalalalala.



i am prepared to score 15/7 if the qn. 'what were the reasons for western colonisation in South east asia ???' using this piece of note. see clearly that it explains very very clearly about the 3 main reasons for western colonisation. i will pass history very very well with a score of 15/7 for the second essay qn. on colonialism. yes. i will.

ok, so to assure that i score 30/7 for my history, i must go study now. but i shall show you two pictures i took at my mummy's school. they are pictures of tissue paper which i chop the pcf logo on to make it look like some restaurants' serviette. and besides the pcf words, it looks relatively artistic. =D





i will pass my EOYs. i promise again. 10 more days to end of EOYs. 11 more days to start of squad chalet.

i must say that wenqi is getting very stressed up these days. its so difficult to make her laugh. and she hardly smile as well. and it is very scary to sit next to a person who hardly smiles.

today, i played muderer with sheila and wing yau and lynn and joey and liwen etc etc. its a rather lame game but quite fun. esp when you play with sheila cos she wink so un-wink like and she will kick-kick me to tell me she winked at me. haha.

and we watched my fair lady during music. its a nice show, but it wasn't shuang because mr lim keep on FF-ing. i will like it and will want it. i want so many many things.

i am now waiting for my lunch at 16.53 because my jiejie is so slow and is still taking her own sweet time at plaza. WITH MY LUNCH!!! argh. i am hungry.

i want monday to be tmr. i want the EOYs to come quickly. i want it to go even quicker. i want to go for squad chalet. i want to be over and done with it. but strange as it seems, this year for me is much easier then last year. i am not as stressed and din push myself as hard. but i hope i do as well. though i din do really well but it was passable. and i want to score higher then last year for my sciences and geography. i can and i will. jiayou jomain. <-- alliteration

jiayou to all my squadmates, people in 207 and everyone i know for their EOYs.

i will do well. i promise.

let me tell yall what happened after the first post.

so after i offed the com i studied history abit and then i watched da4 chang2 jin1 and tian2 mi4 feng1 bao4 and i went out to go with my mama to her course.

so i met my mama at my meimei's school, and we went to bugis but after i got off the bus i felt like vomiting but that is not important.we had lunch and also bought my mummy's presents for her kids in the kindergarten at a value dollar store. and i bought a gun. a revolver to be exact. just that the turning thing thing cannot come out cos its a kids gun. but anw, i bought it and 2 bows. one for my meimei and one for me. but i ralised my jiejie doesnt have anything so i decided to give her the bow and i kept the gun.

then we went to my mama's course place and i went in feeling awkward and such. but i still went it. i sat down and then my mummy shifted some of the things on the table so that me and my meimei could sit there. then this other woman who i din really like came over and sat near to me. then the lecturer came over and said in a quite fierce voice about who shifted her things and such and my mummy had to put the things back.

i felt humiliated i tell you, i did. she spoke in such a tone no teacher in my life have ever spoke to me in before. i was affected. very greatly. i felt upset and i didn't like it. not at all. i felt upset for myself, and for my mother. so, in a fit of anger and upsetness, i left the place. i packed up, asked my meimei to do the same, said somethings about where i'll be going to to my mother and i left. i just left. i went to the national library just opposite the place. and on my way there, my mummy called me. she told me that the lecturer wasnt speaking to me, she was speaking to the other woman there but i din care. she had hurt me already and with unbalanced emotions, i cried. i didnt stop until i reached the library. my sis said that she din understand why i cried, but i dun know either.

lately, i am unable to control my emotions very well like how i do at the rest of the year. i just cry for the slightest sad things that happen to me. it is because of the EOYS i guess, the stress i am putting on myself. but i do not cry because i din get good results. that is not me.

anw, i cooled down and later my mummy sent me a message and i cried again. but anw, i was able to balance everything out again and that is the only reason why i am able to blog about this so calmly now. i am not crying for your info. (:

i read alot at the library. da4 chang2 jin1, liang2 zhu4, cang1 tian1 you3 lei4 and many more. and later i came back and i started shooting my meimei's soft toy tortise with my gun. and i only missed twice out of 6 X 7 times. =D

i like my gun and i miss my squadmates. i want to be back in school quickly.

let me tell everyone here something. i have decided to fail my history. ppl might ask, can like dat decide one meh??? i say can. but the thing is that you can only decide to fail, cannot decide to pass. if you decide to fail, just dun study that subject. sure fail method. haha

actually din want to do the history mock paper one leh. because i thought, if i dun do i cannot cheat then i wun see that ms koh, but then that little Ms koh followed me everywhere until i must do the mock paper. the little Ms koh that was following me wasn't saying "dun cheat!" she was saying "do your mock paper". so in the end i did my mock paper. lalala.

i spent my ytd night studying, until 2 a.m. i actually wanted to go and post my unseen prose de but then i thought if i post so late later let Mrs Koh see then she will say i crazy, so late then post so in the end, i posted this morning. omg. i took 1 hour to post it.

i am going to eat breakfast le.

today, up till now is not a very fruitful day. but it is more fruitful a day then yesterday.

i was on msn just now and i talked to joey for almost up to an hour. joey is one of the easiest people to talkto in our class. anw, i asked her lots of funny qns and she gave me lots of funny answers and we ended up speaking in caps. hahaha.

then i asked her what i should eat and she gave me lots of suggestion and i ended up eating something she didnt suggest. i was at my mum's office so i had to go out to the coffee shop to buy lunch lah. so i ended up eating mixed veg rice. and i asked her to guess what i eat and she guessed it after i told her it was very colourful. joey is smart.

after that i asked her to guess what song i was listening to and she couldnt guess it and she ended up in caps saying: "I GIVE UP LA WAHLAO!"

then later we started talking about our drama. and then we decided on how many siblings red riding hood had which is none. and red riding hood is only half a daughter. haha.

then i ask her whether she eat already and she said she was eating and she ask me to guess what she was eating which goes like this:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ *space* _ _ _ *space* _ _ *space* _ _ _ *space* _ _ _ _ _ *space* _ _ _ _ _


if you can guess it, you're a genius! so i gave a stupid answer saying 'fishball cats aa and doggy soupp' because i really din know what it was. and you know what it really means??? its FISHBALL MEE IN MEE REBUS SAUCE!!! which in actual fact there is no such thing and that joey just made it up on her own and so of course i had to give up before she told me.

then i ask her if she finish her homework and she said she only did the response for the unseen prose and i scared her by telling her i finished my maths, history and science and she got scared and started OMG OMG-ing and then i say to her you still here talking to me and we decided to end our convo there. haha. joey is so hilarious.

ok, i keep asking myself this morning, why am i waking up at this even more unearthly hour(as compared to yunghian) of 6 to go to my mummy's office??? and i found out the answer. because i am scared of staying at home alone. this is all because of "the maid". my jie jie borrowed it from her school library and i watched it out of curiousity(however-you-spell-it) and i got scared. the plot is so evil. and the other maid as in the dead one was so scary. she said things like, "for long i've been trying to speak to you" and i keep thinking what if some unknown ghost is trying to speak to me and i got scared so i do not want to stay at home alone.

now i am at my mummy's office and my mummy is not here cos she went for a seminar and so i get to use and play with her computer which is not what i am going to do. i am going to do my homework! i am a very very good girl you know.

owen went home yesterday. and i cannot watch barney anymore because he brought it home with him. this is so saddening. now i cant hear the nice bread song which i forgot the tune for.

and now that i am here at my mummy's office, i cannot watch the tian2 mi4 feng1 bao4 on channel u at 11a.m because there is no tv here. and i know ppl will start saying that it is a very old show which is true but its nice as well. i lost 1 hour of studying history just because of that show...

lalala. i am gonna go study le. but i realised that my tagboard is quite dead. maybe i should advertise it a little.

ok, i need to go study. i miss my squadmates...

today was not so good studying day. i tried to study history and managed to only finish colonialism. this is bad. i only have 2 more days.

anw, bernice, here is your 4th evidence. ytd, i suddenly heard rain sounds from the radio and i thought, today will rain and it will be a huge thunderstorm and it rained today and it was a huge thunderstorm. hahah. bernice, i got super power!

i'm gonna carry on wif my history liao le. shan blog anymore, if not my mummy will scold me! xD

hahah. today, i started a project that i have been thinking about for very long already. it is the lose-weight-before-2007 project. so, i ran from the 20th storey to the 1st and storey and back up again. =) i'm gonna keep it up for until i become lighter so that i can not get into f4l next year! xD

i have fallen in love with sudoku. my record is now six minutes for a novice challenge and i havent started on the masters part yet. (its a sudoku, novice to guru book). i bought it from popular in choa chu kang ytd and i saw the clip clip thing that sheila gets very fascinated over and i called her many many times to ask if she wants it but she didn't reply.

ytd was an ok studying day. i finidhed almost all my chapters on geog and i'm starting history tmr. i am doing basic map reading now already. =)

i bought a hairband, because mt fringe is getting very very irritating and i cant cut it cos i want to keep long hair. so i got a hairband but i am not going to wear it to school because it looks horrid. so i will wear it at home. =D

i am very happy with my new blog.

owen came to my house yesterday. he was so funny. he was very solemn at first and refused to talk to me then i play with him a bit then he start talking to me liao. hahah.

i am gonna watch the banquet later. i think i will love it.

and i am very dumb. i was walking from my room to my kitchen and i was walking with a book in my hand and i kicked the corner of my wall and it took of a piece of skin and abit of flesh with it and blood started coming out of the wound and it hurts.

nevermind. this is a random post. xD

people tend to contradict themselves. and people my age sometimes just cannnot decide on what they want.

if a teacher is too fierce, she is not a good teacher. if a teacher is too un-fierce, she is not a good teacher either. teachers who teach students harshly, are unkind. teachers who teach too unharshly, are bad teachers. what exactly do we want?

if we really think about it, it is in fact very difficult to make people like us happy. we want too perfect things that is non-existent in this world. it just isnt there. what we do is we lament about how bad it is, how imperfect it can be and do not catch the good of it. and so, we often miss the real essence of one. be it a person or an incident.

we really have to learn to look at the good side of things. at least thats for me. because there surely is a good side to everything. EVERYTHING.

according to lynn, i am experiencing deja vu. so i looked up on what deja vu is cos i din know what it is. so i am gonna paste the whole chunk of thing i got here.

The term déjà vu is French and means, literally, "already seen." Those who have experienced the feeling describe it as an overwhelming sense of familiarity with something that shouldn't be familiar at all. Say, for example, you are traveling to England for the first time. You are touring a cathedral, and suddenly it seems as if you have been in that very spot before. Or maybe you are having dinner with a group of friends, discussing some current political topic, and you have the feeling that you've already experienced this very thing -- same friends, same dinner, same topic.
The phenomenon is rather complex, and there are many different theories as to why déjà vu happens. Swiss scholar Arthur Funkhouser suggests that there are several "déjà experiences" and asserts that in order to better study the phenomenon, the nuances between the experiences need to be noted. In the examples mentioned above, Funkhouser would describe the first incidence as déjà visité ("already visited") and the second as déjà vecu ("already experienced or lived through").
As much as 70 percent of the population reports having experienced some form of déjà vu. A higher number of incidents occurs in people 15 to 25 years old than in any other age group.
Déjà vu has been firmly associated with temporal-lobe epilepsy. Reportedly, déjà vu can occur just prior to a temporal-lobe epileptic attack. People suffering an epileptic seizure of this kind can experience déjà vu during the actual seizure activity or in the moments between convulsions.
Since déjà vu occurs in individuals with and without a medical condition, there is much speculation as to how and why this phenomenon happens. Several psychoanalysts attribute déjà vu to simple fantasy or wish fulfillment, while some psychiatrists ascribe it to a mismatching in the brain that causes the brain to mistake the present for the past. Many parapsychologists believe it is related to a past-life experience. Obviously, there is more investigation to be done.

but even if it is deja vu, it doesnt make sense for it to happen so often. but regardless, i am gonna throw it to the back of my head. So what if i can read the future?

i have a feeling i can read the future.

ytd, my daddy was fetching me to school as usual. i was thinking that maybe this is one of the days that my daddy will over shot and miss the exit he was supposed to exit at and true enough, he did! and he scolded me stupid.

again, on my home ytd, i was walking home from the bus stop when i felt that someone wazs following me. i turned and saw a bearded looking dark chinese and he looked rather gangster-ish just that hes abit older. scared that he was really following me, i let him walk in front of me and i started thinking, what would happen if he sexually harrased me. then i came up with all sorts of scenarios and ways to protect myself. then the next morning which is this morning, li lao shi came in and she said that we were going to discuss about xing4 sao1 rao3. i got really shocked.

then again, there was once, when i went to btp for the first time. it was fine at first until i went into the toilet. it was my first time there and i swear i saw the toilet before. in my dreams as i remember.

then i got really scared as i put all this together and these are not the only three times.

then i talked to mrs koh about it and she told me that she is guessing that it might be because i am an observant person, as she feels about me, and that i sub-consciously take in info and form a thinking or scenario about it. Even in my dreams. she says that there is nothing wrong about this and it was quite a good skill in fact and she asked me why i was scared about it.

and i said that that was because it was unnatural and unusual to know stuff before you experience it and it is scary. but bernice however insists that knowing the future before hand is a good supernatural ability. but i do not think so.

so mrs koh asked me to keep a journal or a written record about these stuff so that i can know whether it is just that i am too observant or that i have premonitions. which is why i am writing this now.

now, i must say that today is not a good day. i spent 2 hours at macdonalds with bernice lin and only managed to study the definition of ONE geography word. Atmosphere. atmosphere can be explained as a blanket of air surrounding the earth and it absorbs energy from the sun so that we have a moderate temperature when we are living here. (:

today was a fruitful day.

i did alot of studying today. dance was so funny. chen lao shi ask me to help her give grades cos i was on mc and cannot do dance cos of my back. and she was so funny when she point point at the people she wanted to give A to. then music was astonishingly ok. i passed my music test with 21/25. and that is very good for a musically idiotic person like me!

during recess i borrowed 6 books from school library. all chinese except for 1 english, no qiong2 yao2. this is because our school library does not have a good wide variety of qiong2 yao2 books. all they have is chuang1 wai4, yan1 yu3 meng2 meng2, and huan2 zhu1 ge2 ge4. and also another chao2 sheng1 which is not under qiong2 yao2 quan2 ji2. which is actually no good because can you imagine how disappointed readers like me will be???

anw, i was almost late for lesson cos the queue was quite long cos ppl want to borrow 10 books for the holidays. haha.

chinese nothing much lah. went through compos and stuff. and signed marksheet which i scored not bad for. its not very good but its ok for me. i got B3, 68. lalala. science this really nice, demure and decent looking teacher walked in and her name is ms goh. ppl keep calling her barbie doll teacher which i so dun agree to because she is much more prettier than a barbie doll. and i wun mind her teaching me science next year either cos she is so nice and beautiful although she talks quite soft. that is if she teaches upper sec of course.

i ate lunch with squadmates. i actually din want to eat de but my gastric acted up so i had no choice.

lang arts went quite ok. i din have to do corrections for my unseen prose for which i got 18/25 because my was passable. maths we went through a few questions from textbook end-of-year specimen paper 2&3 which i thought was quite easy which ms yeo thought was quite easy which wenqi thought was quite easy as well. but i guess different ppl react differently to maths bah. some unlike me do not like maths. xD

then me bernice and sarah went to KAP to study. i did quite alot! finished up all my maths specimen paper(end of year only) and finished geog chapter 1, starting chapter 2.

this is my reasoning. i will study geog first, then put it to the back of my mind, then study history, and throw it away after its over. then dig out geog and it may wish to stay there in my brain if it wants. and i'll memorise science and lock it in my brain cos it is not supposed to runaway. after all i'm opting for 3 sciences.

down to it, its a fruitful day. i studied alot. =)

i am tired of studying and so i am here giving another post after my last one 4 hours ago.

i often ask myself: "why do we study and what for? why dun we live like how our ancestors lived many many years ago?"

then the answer comes,"because we want to improve and make our lives better."

but then another question comes, "are we sure that technology and improvement are making our lives better rather than bringing us to destruction?"

well, that i do not know. so i have decided that the only reason i am studying is because the world wants me to study. at least MY WORLD does.

so i have decided again that i will study because my world wants be to study and my world wants me to study to become someone useful in life and so i shall be. however, the definition of USEFUL, will be defined by me.

ha! finally got all my links and all in place... must thank alot of ppl for helping me with this blog.

ytd joey was so funny. we were in com lab and so she asked me "Jomain, you want me to help you create a blog?" and i said "ok" and she almost vomited blood helping me. well, you cant blame me because it is not my fault that i dun know how to use blogger and there really is nothing i know how to do with a blog, so i had lots and lots of help from joey and soggy. they were nice enough to sit me through it all! Fortunately, i am a very fast learner and i caught it the first time they taught me.

if you looked at my blog url, you might think that i am very zi4 lian4(which i will not deny) but however, i did not choose it myself. Joey chose it for me and i thought why not? jomain-jomain sounds nice. and so i took it. haha.

today on my way home, i took the same bus as a hwa chong guy. and we alighted at the same stop. and we were walking home but we didn't know each other. so i was walking behind him cos i didn't want to walk fast. then, after around 30 seconds into the walking, he turned. and he made it a point to turn back every few steps he walked to see if i was still behind him. i think he thought i was following him but i wasnt. and so he walked. so thinking that he knew his way and i didn't, he decided to take one big round and i didn't follow him so i walked home slowly, taking my time. but when the road of the one big round and the road that i was walking met, he was still in front of me. and when he turned, i think he got a shock. he actually stays at the block just next to mine. haha.

hello. my new blog!!! first one thanks to JOEY!!!