hahaha. so i din go to that ill-mannered cousin's birthday party. but that is only because i spent the whole afternoon at the tailor's choosing materials to use for my mother's kindergarten's graduation concert costumes.

i have good colour combination. the clothes i choose are nice. my jie agrees. then we went to raffles hospital for dinner, then went to kallang for a buddhist event.

i got alot to write about.

these 2 things should have been said on friday but i didn't.

1) i got back maths paper and on it, the teacher who marked qn 7 who i dunno who she/he is wrote on my paper,

"i'm impressed with your honesty. Say hi to me the next time you see me."

yeah. if it was me i would have been impressed too. afterall my own honesty impressed myself. i dun know how i was willing to return 2 marks to the teacher so easily but i know, i couldnt have lived with a false mark and i dun understand, really i dun, how someone can. i would let guilt kill me. really. being the rigid person i am, principles and rightness rules my life. i live my every second thinking, what would your conscience say if you did this or what would you think of yourself if you didn't do this??? wow. these thinking leads me to where i am now. if one day, i really go far away from the right route i am supposed to go, please, remind me that i once was such an honest person and wake me up because i am now proud of who i am.

2) ms yeo will be leaving nanyang next year. i want to wish her luck. i feel lucky. out of her precious 4 years she spent in NY, i had 2 years of her teachings which made sense but i have to admit there were some which i din fully agree with. i feel, of course, a sad sense in me because she is leaving but she feels that its better if she taught in a neighbourhood school, what else can i comment about??? all i can ask is if she will leave me a way to stay in contact with her constantly. and that is uninclusive of her handphone number because i cannot possibly call her every now and then and say... i dun even know what i want to say to her but... argh. i am messed up!



i finished reading yan1 suo3 zhong4 lou3 already. we shall call it book 50 here. and i finshed xin1 yue4 ge2 ge4 which will be called book 49 ard 2 years ago. i made an analysis of both these books and i am going to type it here.

Book 49 and 50 are both qiong2 yao2 books belonging to a series called the yong3 heng2 series. these 2 book are more special as compared to other books in qiong2 yao2 series and you will know why if you read on. these 2 books, they have romance in them, but what is different id that these 2 kind of 'love' portrayed are more unaccepted by not only their families, their closest people, but also unaccepted by the customs then.

49, it talks about the story of a princess who lost her parent due to war. she was saved together with her brother by a man, a general to be exact, and this man is old enough to be her father. this man, he has a wife and 2 children already, his oldest son being of an age even older than the princess but yet, the princess fell in love with the general. this love between the guy who is much older than the girl was unaccepted by the people then and the both main characters died in the end. but it was a beautiful death as said in the book.

50, it is almost similar to 49, only the love was unaccepted not because of the character's age but because of their status. the guy wanted to marry a widow who was also his sister-in-law. and it was wrong then because of the "zhen1 jie2" a widow must have then. "zhen1 jie2" meaning i marry you now, i will be yours forever till i die. this kind of thinking, the woman's own sense of responsibility refrained her from "si1-ben1-ing" with the guy. and this made everything very complicated and irritating because the reader is almost dying from pain that the girl goes through and yet they dun get together when they had the chance to. but in the end they did have a happy ending which i thought wasn't quite that good.

so these 2 are different in terms of the kind of unaccepted love but yet similar in the pains that both couples had to go through to get that acceptance. these books are almost painful to read because they feel as if they were "jiao3-ing" your heart but you feel so relieved when they end up good, together.

i am going to start on the article for Montage now like i promised.