ok. i realised i havent been blogging since monday. well many many things happened during this whole week and some i cant even remember myself. well. will just blog about prep to clear-up.

wednesday.
preparation for farewell. practically shook myself awake pouring huge pails of COLD water over myself. couldnt help it. i was really sleepy. i woke up at 5.45 i think. reached school at 6.45 or later. finished up present for 37 maams and did last minute pre-preparation. prep i think went quite well. we finished most things on that day. left breakthrough to dry, decorations all up, tunnel leading to breakthrough finished. many things done. had a good sense of achievement.

thursday.
farewell. again had to wake myself up from nice comfy cold bed. i just realised that without my blanket i can actually get very cold. my mm washed my blanket and it was freezing cold. anyway, we did more preparation and finished everything at 1 something. waited around until 2 something before we acted as huai4 ren2. was so nervous. anyway, sqdms told maams about our weakness and when maam came and saw the words "Mojojojo" they started screaming and i could do nothing to stop them. maams were almost in a way "desperate" i would say. they were funny. though it was a pity that maams din go through the tunnel, but i guess they appreciated it. anw, thinking about it, if it were me i would not go in too if i had a choice. performance went well. din screw it up.

served ex-maams food and drinks until i think maams wanna tell us not to go ask them anymore cos there is only like so many maams and so many of us. after that we ate abit and had company talk. delta gave maams prawns and apron. maams gave us very nice picture frame. the picture very nice. although black and white, it looks good on the background. thank you maams! =) actually maams say its not very nice but i think not lor. i like it alot leh. its not ke4 dao4 hua4 ok! i mean it.

guess when we gave 37 maams present we din get the effect that we wanted so i think we better not try it again cos it is so not going to work. and it didnt. connie maam's necklace came out but me and jiawen repaired it with the scissors that huishan got for us. then we talked abit and played ball. 38 maams were playing badminton with 37 maams. then song session quite leng3. maybe our farewell ask cadets dun arrange song session. possible?

clear-up.
went to school early. cleared spiral staircase finish then shift benches. fall in. after that i dun want to say more. but we had a good talk with 38 maams and i am starting to think that actually we din think in 38 maams shoes. everytime only think about ourselves. then maybe somethings can dun be so mean to them. feeling quite mean.

came home and slept. then. i just rejected an offer to go out with ex-classmates. feels weird going out with them after so many times never go. and then again sometimes when sqdms wanna have meeting and it clashes with their outing i would choose to go with sqdms. so in the end i very long never go out with them le. maybei quite mean but i dun wanna feel awkward with them and i should not go out these few days cos mm very not happy with me liao. everyday go out so early and come back do late. to add on, i need to sleep tmr. anw. can go out anytime but tmr till next whole week.

i am happy.