we had act today. i woke up in the morning at 6.30 and went with dds' car and slept in the car cos i was feeling very upset that i had to wake up so early.

then i ate dinner with dd and mm and i reached school at 8. the minute i reached school i got an sms saying "where are you?" from ju and i got scared. maybe i got the time wrong and i was late!!!

but i wasnt so i met up with them in the canteen. we were late for act by ard 5 minutes i think.

i pitched flag twice and had to leave early cos i had to take report book and got choral night. this might sound ego but i am very happy with the speed i am pegging at. though i have to say my lashings very slow but i peg fast! =D

i got back my report book and i got 70.67%. i am happy with it. remarks were written by li laoshi and she said the normal thing about me shan4 yu2 fa1 yan3, yuan4 yi4 biao3 da2 kan4 fa3, kind of thing. basically quite good. =) i got promoted to sec 3 =) although i hen3 bu4 xiang4 but i keep acting as if i was not promoted. xD

sqms and i went to yuan hans' hse after going coronation and we slacked ard and i came home after yuanhan's hse. i lin2 yu3 from the busstop to yuanhan's hse and now i am sniffing and cold. =S.

i came home, watched tv, and ate dinner. after my mother came home and off-ed the tv because my sisters had to study, i went to sleep and i slept until now. my sisters and everybody was very bu4 shuang3 that i get to sleep from 7 till 10.30 and in between keep trying to break my beautiful sleep. they are just jealous.

anw, during that sleep i had a dream. a very nice one that i rmb quite clearly. it goes that me, ju, zhiyi and jieqi went overseas on a holiday to china. it was either china or taiwan but i was quite sure it was china. then the place was really really huge and there were big buildings everywhere making the place look cheena and yet majestic. we were crossing this bridge and there were nice red big lanterns hung up on the side of the bridge. i rmb me and jieqi keep taking photos on the bridge and ju keep helping us take. i was feeling quite ke3 xi1 cos i din bring a camera with me or somthing like that. the buildings at the back were big and they were really cool. then before anything could happen i got awoken by my mother who was vacumming the floor. so saddening. i want to know what the china in my dreams look like. =(

haha. i hope i get back in this dream tonight. though i know its not quite possible. haha.

i slacked my today away. what do expect from someone whos on a mental holiday?

i woke up at 9. then i went exercising jogging. then i came home cooked myself something to eat, then started watching tv. i watched ye guang shen bei from 10.30 till around 15.50 when huishan called me to help her print something and i helped her print and now its 16.18 and my dd is home so i cannot watch tv anymore!

i am going to watch choral night performance later! meeting huishan at 6. this is the plan...

16.30- bathe
16.50- get ready, pack up and wear socks
17.00- leave the house
17.15- reach library
17.25-17.30- leave library
18.00- reach school.

in between i will catch something to eat. afterall i haven eaten anything since 10.00 this morning.

=D

yesterday was class chalet BBQ. <3s. i woke up at 6.45 ytd morning bathed, went to school in dds car and reached school at 7.45. waited for zhiyi with chris and kai qi and went into the audi. listened to speech by mdm mak, speech by mrs Yu-Foo, and talk by ms wendy chua. she really is quite good a speaker. she got my attention and told the audience about her jing1 li4. i think she would be quite a nice person to talk to, really. then we had break and i ate abit + drank coffee and we went back in.

i should stop drinking coffee, i think i will get addicted to it and later i will have yellow teeth.

then we listen to the "reflections" by our seniors and some of shuqun primary school people. then the seminar ended.

me and zhiyi went to bukit timah food centre to eat and then went to IMM and got a ribbon back for zhiyi's friend at daiso with a pair of socks for me and then slacked around and walked around and went back. i went to school and zhiyi went home.

i waited at hci for lynn and yixian. lynn's mother fetched us to huifun's house and we reached there quite early. then yixian and i walked up and down huifun's neighbourhood and tested the hearts and minds of seveners and realised that out of tianhui, jasmine, shihui and liwen, only shihui and jasmine had nice hearts because they bothered to stop their father's cars and ask if we wanted a lift up. haha.

then we changed into costumes and my back started hurting and i took some photos and yiwei looked really good. then we BBQed. i must add that sheena and i made good chicken wings.

i ate a marshmallow which i din quite like but i like the chocolate. i only ate the chocolate because huifun made it and i must give her face. after that got back into costumes and took another class photo before going home. yiwei won best costume award. 6 of us, bernice, yiwei, yixian, sok and siewying walked down to the bus stop together and yixian left first.then sok and siewying and bernice and me, leaving yiwei all alone waiting for her father.

then when i was reaching plaza, i called yiwei to see if she was safe and she said she was but after that, she smsed back and asked "did you call me just now?" and i said yes i did and i asked her "didn't you answer?" she said yes she did but she didn't know who called her.

then i went to mac to wait for my mummy and we ate there before going home. i bathed and slept immediately after i got home. i slept on the master bed because dd went to drive taxi.

this morning i woke up at 11.45 and went jogging at 12.15. then i met mummy downstairs and i pei2 her to NTUC to buy groceries. then i came home at 1 to eat my breakfast. haha. breakfast at 1. then i came blogging and thats what i am doing now.

yesterday was last day of school. we had the best last day of school. we got scolded. -.- i walked into class and that very moment i got 5 notes. make me feel so loved. sheila's note held the most meaning to me. thank you sheila, i am touched. really. i guess term 3 was the turning point of our friendship. sitting in a group actually changed our perception of each other, from good to bad and i really must say, sheila is nice.

we din play alot of games yesterday and we became vases during level closure but i guess we touched our teachers to an extend. esp ms yeo and ms koh. we got scolded during break and got banned from our class but we want to rmb the good and not the bad right? so i wun say much. after that was farewell for mdm mak and i was touched, almost wanted to cry but didn't because i was with squadmates and dun want to cry in front of them.

after that we had choral night and it lasted until 5 something. then i met up with sqdms and went home. i used the com, compile, finish up proposal and i slept at 3. because of a stupid table(as in the one in word document). damn it i am still pissed can.

this morning, i woke up at 7.30, printed out proposal and went to my mothers' office to finish printing cause my printer showed signs of death. then i put everything in the file and i went to school at ard 9.30. met jiawen on the bus and saw sijia but she was walking so slowly she missed 171. then we slacked ard, eat mac, and went for live shoot.

live shoot was weird. we shot only once. and the gun was oily. haha. after that, i didnt take the school bus to cck interchange, instead i went with huishan to take the straight bus back. me take 975, huishan take 172.

i went to plaza to look for my costume for tmr's bbq and i found masks. and a sword. so i abandoned the face paint idea and decided on a cape, a mask and i would bring a sword. i came home and slacked until now.

tmr's plans.
0800-go to school for the seminar
1300-leave school with zhiyi and go to IMM daiso to buy the huge bowtie i lost.
1600-meet up with the ppl frying rice at huifn's house and go with them to huifun's house to no.1, dress up and no.2, maybe help out abit.
2000-2200-i will go home and blog about it.

yes, thats it.

today was a nice day. i played alot of games with 207 and watched the wonderful powerpoint made by tian hui i think. and we watched "The Mighty" which is a very nice show.

we played er whacko, jacobs ladder of something like this and we played hide- and-seek and i missed winning the game by 1 minute. just one minute and i could have won. and the worst thing id that i was hiding in such an open place with liuyi and yiwei.

and then we played and played and i read abit and i finished reading xue3 ke1 today. the "xue3 zhong1 zhi1 yu4, bi4 neng2 nai4 han2" one. so sad the story. *sniffs sniffs*

and then i went for present making and i went home at 6.15.

i came home and almost missed my stop because i was reading. lucky i recognised joleen's netball junior who alights at the same stop as me and she walked passed me to get off the bus and so i went off the bus with her. =D

i ate cai4 fan4 for dinner and i am very busy today. i need to go do work.

i wasted today away as usual.

i finished reading wang4 fu1 ya2 yesterday night. IN THE TOILET!!! and why is that so?? because my family was all sleeping in the master bed-room and everyone wanted to sleep and i din want to go out alone cos it was scary and my daddy wanted the light off and so i escaped into the toilet to finish reading the book. only the last chapter though. i finished it in less than 5 minutes. the speed at which i read amaze myself.

this morning i woke up at 9.30 and got up and i started writing messages to my classmates. afterall, tmr would be family day and thursday would be last day. must biao3 shi4 yi1 xia4. and may i inform the class here that the card each of you will get is a part of your maths notice board and you must keep it properly and zhen1 xi1 it because of its great significance. its unfair that i bring home the whole maths notice board so i want to share it with all of you and that explains the holes made by staples.

i realised that it is not that very easy to write a message to everyone. its damn hard can. i dun know what i want to say to some and i got alot to say to others and that explains the difference in length of the messages. and joey is special cos she will be getting a message in purple. and i got not enough paper so, jasmine will get a special message on a special piece of paper. afterall jasmine gave great influence to me. real reason is because i din know until i reached register no. 28 and i had to choose one special person from 29-36 and i chose jasmine. jasmine, you must feel honoured.

throughout i keep side-tracking and go on to read my book xue3 ke1. xue3 ke1 = xue3 zhong1 zhi1 yu4 = jade in the snow. theres this sentence in the book which says "xue3 zhong1 zhi1 yu4, bi4 neng2 nai4 han2" and its very inspiring. at least to me and xue3 ke1, it is. and this book has a very sad ending. xue3 ke1 died. =( and i keep having to tell myself, 1) jomain, you are great, you read really fast. you finished 104 pages in less than 1 hr and 30 minutes. and between this time i keep having to force myself back to writing messages because my liang2 xin1 tells me, if anyone of my classmates dun get this, they will be sad.

owen is great man. he can watch the same show 4 times a day, over and over again without getting bored. worst of all he is still engrossed in it. thats what he did. man.

yesterday, my sister had to force owen to go pee before he sleep. she told him this "tonight you 'shhh shhh' (pee) on my bed, i ' shh shh' on you ar!" and he went to pee immediately. so funny. haha.

i am doing work. i feel so busy although holidays are coming. my sad sister is sad. my first day of holiday is her first day of exams. hahaha. i am gloating.

school today was slack. seriously. there was nothing important other than checking of SA results. but i got to read.

i finished 180-17 pages today up till now of wang4 fu1 ya2 and i am going to finish it by today. although its really very difficult to read, after all i am not accustomed to reading from right to left and vertically instead of horizontally but anw, the story is too interesting to stop half-way and stoping half-way is not what jomain does.

i went home after school because i thought squadmates not staying back but they were staying back and i brought the -------- back with me. so i think they couldnt do anything. i went home with yixian and i took 170 because we were taking it together with zihui who is going back to malaysia for her grandfathers 90th birthday. and then i showed yixian the general direction i was going to walk in to reach home and i think it scared her cos 1. there were construction works, 2. it was almost a road that was cutting through the forest, 3. it was deserted. so i think she got worried for my safety and she sent me and sms saying something like "are you home safetly already?" or something like that. haha.

i told mrs koh that i was unable to give her the essay by today and so i think if they sent it to the publisher today, my piece will not be in it. but still i will finish up that narrative and give it to her and if it doesnt get into the Montage she can 1. keep it or 2. return it to me.

i came home and i started eating and reading and i am going to finish the book i very proudly say.

today i woke up at 8.00. and so i took a bath and started writing my narrative after very very long writer's block. then i ended up with 1 page of story before i left for woodlands to meet squadmates. i ate chicken rice while squadmates queued up and waited for char kway teow and chao xia mian and i finished eating when they started.

then we went to library and started discussing about proposal again and i am supposed to do dimensions for ---. i borrowed 3 books which i must say isnt very appealing to me now because all i can think of is proposal and my montage story which i haven finished. i am halfway through and i will bring it to school tmr and ask Mrs Koh for an extension till wed.

tmr i will stay back in school.

hahaha. so i din go to that ill-mannered cousin's birthday party. but that is only because i spent the whole afternoon at the tailor's choosing materials to use for my mother's kindergarten's graduation concert costumes.

i have good colour combination. the clothes i choose are nice. my jie agrees. then we went to raffles hospital for dinner, then went to kallang for a buddhist event.

i got alot to write about.

these 2 things should have been said on friday but i didn't.

1) i got back maths paper and on it, the teacher who marked qn 7 who i dunno who she/he is wrote on my paper,

"i'm impressed with your honesty. Say hi to me the next time you see me."

yeah. if it was me i would have been impressed too. afterall my own honesty impressed myself. i dun know how i was willing to return 2 marks to the teacher so easily but i know, i couldnt have lived with a false mark and i dun understand, really i dun, how someone can. i would let guilt kill me. really. being the rigid person i am, principles and rightness rules my life. i live my every second thinking, what would your conscience say if you did this or what would you think of yourself if you didn't do this??? wow. these thinking leads me to where i am now. if one day, i really go far away from the right route i am supposed to go, please, remind me that i once was such an honest person and wake me up because i am now proud of who i am.

2) ms yeo will be leaving nanyang next year. i want to wish her luck. i feel lucky. out of her precious 4 years she spent in NY, i had 2 years of her teachings which made sense but i have to admit there were some which i din fully agree with. i feel, of course, a sad sense in me because she is leaving but she feels that its better if she taught in a neighbourhood school, what else can i comment about??? all i can ask is if she will leave me a way to stay in contact with her constantly. and that is uninclusive of her handphone number because i cannot possibly call her every now and then and say... i dun even know what i want to say to her but... argh. i am messed up!



i finished reading yan1 suo3 zhong4 lou3 already. we shall call it book 50 here. and i finshed xin1 yue4 ge2 ge4 which will be called book 49 ard 2 years ago. i made an analysis of both these books and i am going to type it here.

Book 49 and 50 are both qiong2 yao2 books belonging to a series called the yong3 heng2 series. these 2 book are more special as compared to other books in qiong2 yao2 series and you will know why if you read on. these 2 books, they have romance in them, but what is different id that these 2 kind of 'love' portrayed are more unaccepted by not only their families, their closest people, but also unaccepted by the customs then.

49, it talks about the story of a princess who lost her parent due to war. she was saved together with her brother by a man, a general to be exact, and this man is old enough to be her father. this man, he has a wife and 2 children already, his oldest son being of an age even older than the princess but yet, the princess fell in love with the general. this love between the guy who is much older than the girl was unaccepted by the people then and the both main characters died in the end. but it was a beautiful death as said in the book.

50, it is almost similar to 49, only the love was unaccepted not because of the character's age but because of their status. the guy wanted to marry a widow who was also his sister-in-law. and it was wrong then because of the "zhen1 jie2" a widow must have then. "zhen1 jie2" meaning i marry you now, i will be yours forever till i die. this kind of thinking, the woman's own sense of responsibility refrained her from "si1-ben1-ing" with the guy. and this made everything very complicated and irritating because the reader is almost dying from pain that the girl goes through and yet they dun get together when they had the chance to. but in the end they did have a happy ending which i thought wasn't quite that good.

so these 2 are different in terms of the kind of unaccepted love but yet similar in the pains that both couples had to go through to get that acceptance. these books are almost painful to read because they feel as if they were "jiao3-ing" your heart but you feel so relieved when they end up good, together.

i am going to start on the article for Montage now like i promised.

i feel very dui4 bu4 qi3 my squadmates. every time they meet i will have something on.

yesterdays' dinner was nice. i reached the place at 7.35 and we were late! and later when we went in, the restaurant was only half-filled. dinner started at 9. -.- do you know how much impact bu4 shou3 shi2 people have on wedding dinners??? i am so pissed. hai my gastric fa1 zuo4. the bride was very fat and the groom was very old. i know its mean but its fact.

we had er, crispy roasted chicken, sliced abalone with mushrooms, noodles, steamed prawns in bamboo basket, the starting dish of every wedding dinner, fish (garoupa), and scallop with lots and lots of veggie. the food was nice. we had yam and pumpkin for desert.

the waiter who was serving my table was so shuai!!! he was really patient too you know. afterall, he could stand my ill-mannered cousin's impoliteness and troublesome-ness so he must be quite patient. and he had a jin1 ren2 he4 (all in) feel.

i ate lots of chocolate before the dinner started. the chocolate was nnniiiiccceeee.

i am going to start writing the essay for Montage later maybe at my aunt's hse for which i am going because of that ill-mannered cousin's birthday party which my mum says i must go. he is an idiot can. he is the only cousin who is what, 7 years my junior and calls me by my name??? and he cant even pronounce my name properly. jomin jomin jomin. what the hell. i dun like him. alot alot. and i have to attend his birthday party. this is like so sad.

i am going to eat my breakfast now. i am hungry and angry. pissed.

today was not that good a good day.

morning 2-7 discussed alot of things. it actually set me out thinking how true are people's heart when they actually say something and how much do they mean it?? nvm. i have my own thinking and it may seem quite cynical so i wun fa1 biao3 my thinking here.

then i keep thinking, what is good and what is bad and how exactly do you differentiate good from bad and bad from good. oh, i am doing too much thinking.

then i slept for 10 minutes before we went for the fruit hunt. then we missed the sec 3 project viewing and later we played dingbats and practiced half a time of drama.

then i went home with yixian before i left her at the busstop to take 171. then i came home, got ready and bathe, changed until now i am waiting for my sister and owen to finish bathing. =D

wedding dinner later. i will be sitting near the VIP table. so excited. right.

i am happy.

today was just PW briefing, and i think i want to sign up for SMP(science mentorship programme or something like that) and do either the defence one with yinhwee or do with ju either the bio one or the weather one. later they all decide dun do i die...

then we had choral night practice and we thought of singing mai ham song like a choir but our suggestion was immediately rejected by huifun who can really imitate very very well. melissa aslo disagreed so in the end we din do it. i read alot and most of the time and estella passed me the slip and this is what it said.

Dear Jomain,

Montage needs contribution on National Education themes.
It can be essays, narratives, poem, opinions.
Suggested ideas- homeland security; inter-racial relations, education.
School themes like- your feelings about school, your uniform, etc.

Please take your time to write and these themes and submit your pieces to me next week. (Monday)
Thank You
Mrs Koh


this is so unlike me. how can i possibly be chosen to write an essay in english??? i am like those kind of people who will write nonsense that even i think sounds nonsensical. but nevertheless, i shall put my best in it. the 2 topics that hit me are homeland security and uniforms. but i shall see first. i shall go to the heritage corner tmr and look up the history of nanyang uniform.

drama was -.- mr tang insists that i look gay. and he told me to put a pen in my pocket to look more male. hahha.

present making was successful. we finished quite alot of work which of course i will not name. but it was really good. we put our hearts into it and zhiyi can really draw. she mo2 fang3 the font until very nice.

we as in me and my family went to turf city giant to buy stuff but couldnt find anything. so we went to causeway point and we bought glass things that i shouldnt touch cos i am 'the breaker'.

i came home, bathed and watched fairy of the chalice and i like zhang1 ting2 and the gong1 zhu3 in the show. they are both very cute people.

then i managed to convince my computer to connect to internet and now i am blogging. xD

i am very happy.

today i came up with a fantastic idea for present making. of course i wun post about the idea but i will say that my idea was good.

we went for the singapore binaele bee-na-le thing which i dun know how to spell and the exhibits were good. they were un-understandable but good. i walked around with yiwei and we got alot of understanding from un-understandable art pieces. i carried Ms Koh's bag for her cos she hurt her arm and how can she carry her own backpack when she hurt her arm so i carry for her and i am very proud of it. thank you very much.

i came back at 1.30 and thought of ideas for present making and i thought of something. and i think it is a good idea and 38 maams accepted it so i was happy. so we were very fast and we decided like 3-5 minutes after we sat down. as maams say, "deltarians are very decisive"

we went to beauty world to buy materials and got quite somethings back. after that, we came back just as other companies were going out. as the saying goes "xiong1 you3 cheng2 zhu2". i think this years present will go very well.

i am working on it.

mummy bought ye4 guang1 shen2 bei1 for me. =D

i really feel like killing my sister.

she spoiled the tortoise sok gave me for birthday present!!!!

i feel like killing her.

i din go to school today.

i am sick! and i sound like a frog(thats how yunghian would describe it.)

i spent my day happily. i woke up at 8.45(i think) and ate breakfast. then i watched tv. then i packed my room up. and i threw away everything that was still in my room. then i read the books i borrowed from school library because i couldn't watch tv because my sis was studying. then i watched tv while my sis bathed and i finished the whole set of xiao2 bao3 yu3 kang1 xi1. yes i finished it.

today is a happy day.

today just passed like that. yah just like that.

i dragged myself to school early in the morning. very very unwillingly. whats there to do in school anyway??? so i convince myself must take class photo with class if not will very yi2 han4 de. so i forced myself out of my nice comfy bed, look at my sister still in bed(PSLE marking day) and thought: "nvm, when i holiday that time, you just started your exam!!!" so i got to school after i bathed and all. then i realised it was a bad day.

why was it a bad day???

1)it was a hazy day
2)it was a sleepy day
3)both my sisters got to sleep in.

yes. so i was a bad day but it din turn out that bad anyway.

after much thinking, considering and wastage of brain juices, i have come to the conclusion that people generally can have 3 types of reaction to haze.

1) they are very very unhappy about it coming because it (means) :
a. no outdoor activities
b. harms the health
c. makes the whole place stink
d. is very not nice to live in

2) however, on the other hand, we have weird people who likes it because it (means) :
a. no outdoor activities
b. more in-door activities
c. increases the chances of us getting a free holiday like in 1997
d. they just like problems arising for the country because they are weird

3) lastly, they can be fickled-minded like me because :
a. no outdoor activities and i dun like outdoor activities
b. more indoor activities like watching tv
c. increases the chances of us getting a free holiday like in 1997 and i want that holiday
d. but i dun want my squadmates who are easily affected by the haze to get affected
e. i dun want my country to have problems arising
f. i cannot decide if i want the haze or not.


back to my day. i went to school and we took class photo. and i swear that will be the only time you see me sitting like an idiot. i got back chinese and geography today. geography was satisfying, chinese not that bad but not that good either.

at the moment, my results are as follows:

Language Arts: i dunno
Chinese: 64.25
Maths: 83
Science: havent seen the paper yet
Integrated Humanities: History(25) + Geography(37) = 62

i am happy with my current results. really. dun ask me why i can take it so easily, i dun know either. but i am very unhappy that my chinese compo got more than 5 cuo4 bie2 zi4. and today, the teacher who jiang2 jie3 the ying4 yong4 wen2 was really cute! i wouldn't mind her as chinese teacher. not that i dun like li lao shi, shes very nice too but i think the ying4 yong4 wen2 teacher is really very funny.

i came home at 2.30-3.00 cooked myself curry maggi mee + 5 hotdogs. and i added too much water until my curry doesnt taste like curry anymore. but i watched tv and polished my boots and badges and then after i finished, jiawen called and said: "jomain, no need to prepare u for tmr." and i really felt like smacking something.

i watched tv until 7 o'clock and had dong1 fen3 for dinner and the fishball tasted awful.

i am sniffing but i dun know why. i know, the haze the haze.

the haze made me sniff??? sounds ilogical to me.

today was a day relatively better than yesterday but not very much better. the only reason i am here is because i cannot watch tv because of the reasons listed below:

1) i watched tv since 8.30 this morning which is for 6 hours already.
2) my tv is showing signs of breaking down
3) everytime i on the tv, 2 very familar people(my 2 sisters) will leave their books and watch tv with me which is bad because they are going to have exam soon.

yes. so i woke up at 8.30am and watched tv till now and there is nothing i should have to say about watching tv so i am not going to say anything.

i am planning to delete my tagboard. there is nobody tagging and its dead so i am thinking of deleting it. but how will people leave a mark if i delete it. so i will not delete it. people who read my blog please tag to keep my tagboard alive.

i thought about a very very lame joke yesterday. there are 2 answers to this question depending on the language used to ask it.

if a cat and a parrot got married and they reproduced what would you get???

or

如果猫和鹦鹉结了婚还生了孩子， 孩子会是什么？


i am so lamed out by my own joke. the answer to the first one is carrot.

second one not as funny is 猫头鹰 .

hahah.

my meimei just brought back her class photo two days ago and i saw her friend and it a guy and he is damn shuai!!! too bad i am older than him by 3 years. but he has 3 older brothers. xD but my dumb meimei had to tell him that i said that he was shuai and in the end, she po4 huai4 le wo3 zai4 shuai-ge mian4 qian2 de xing2 xiang4. really. she just had to tell him and spoil my beautiful image.

sigh i want to go sleep le. afternoon nap. i dun take afternoon naps but i am bored. so i shall take an afternoon nap.

life has became meaningless for me. i have no goal in life! and that is killing me. really. do you know how painful it is to have no goal in life??? its those kind of pain that will stab you yet not kill you but let you bleed slowly and die even more slowly. the painful part is not the stabbing. yet it is the knowledge of your own soon-coming yet not-coming death. the feeling is painful. simply painful.

i spent today like a wanderer. i was at home the whole day(not including night)yet i miraclously spent the day like a wanderer. how did i wander??? i wandered from room to room not knowing what to do.

before that, lets talk about sleeping. in the morning, i woke up at 9.30. but i got up at 11. why??? because i thought: "if i have nothing to do, might as well sleep more instead of forcing yourself to do something." so i got myself to lie in bed for another 1 hour and 30 minutes thing of what to do for the whole day. i know, i am mad, but what should i have done???

after i woke up, i tried making myself spend 1 hour on eating but i failed. very badly. i only took 10 minutes.

i slacked around. i went so desperate i almost wanted to teach my sister(her exams are coming) although i don't make a good teacher. i gave the idea up because she was doing compo. so i went to play with owen instead.

can you imagine it??? a 14 year old playing with a 4 year old out of boredom. but he wanted to draw and there was nothing i could do for him in the field of art and so i went away.

i watched xiao2 bao3 yu3 kang1 xi1 and i did that for the whole day. i was bored! really. i was!

then in the evening, we went to people's park to buy new clothes for a wedding dinner. its on next friday. oh i might have dalt. oh no. nvm. i'll think about it when the time comes. now, i came up with a plan during shopping. i will go on 'lone soaking' tmr. but the plan was rejected by my mummy. and when she finally agreed, it was unwillingly. so i will not be going 'lone soaking' tmr. there goes the plan.

i am bored. i have no short-term goal. and that is bad.

i am bored. really.

today was a totally slackish and useless day. i went through today doing nothing with any worth at all. omg, i am becoming bad.

i got 25/50 for history. i am okay with it though. because i never expected to score high for it anyway. i got 83/100 for maths and i am very unhappy with it. i expected more but i am not feeling that bad about it anyway. its not that kind of sadness that will kill me so, ya... i am contradicting myself but lalalalalala....

i played bridge with sheila and rensyn and clara and a few more people and i realise i suck at that game. i keep hai-ing my partner lose. hahaha....

i got many many mosquito bites from chalet. very itchy. just now very itchy, then yiwei decided to use her magic hand and rub the one on my knee and cover it so that i cannot hit it. yiwei is so nice.

then after i went home i bathed and ate and after that watched tv until 6 something then i sleep until 7. now i am watching tv again. i had macdonalds for dinner which was satisfying other than soggy fries.

i am itching to play mahjong. this is bad actually. very very bad. later i lan4 du3 cheng2 xing4 then become gambler then cannot become doctor then cannot become gyneacologist then all my dreams all gone. i will stop myself from playing too much mahjong. yes. that is what i will do.

i am going to watch tv to save myself from boredom and a crazy nerve in me who likes to dance and sing when i am bored.

chalet is over. what i got:

1. never think that it will not be cold and do not bring a jacket because of that thinking.
2. playing mahjong tong xiao is exciting and tiring
3. sleeping out in the cold is warming when you have a squadmate to give you a towel for a blanket even though you have fallen asleep.
4. eat on time and dun jump after that if not you will have to go home and sleep and not get to go for BBQ.
5. you can sleep for 14 hours if you din sleep for one night.
6. soaking can make you darker but soaking somewhere without building will give better results.
7. mahjong is addictive.

squad chalet is over. but it was fun. i din get to stay the 2nd night but it was fun anw.

first day. my mummy allowed me to stay over for 2 nights. happpy happy. reached jurong east mrt at 1 though we said to meet at 1.30. read and waited. jinqing arrived after me. then huishan who was very kind and because of that donated 8 dollars. haha. then we met most sqms and went to chalet. theni realised that i went to CHERVONS before because of somebody's wedding. squadmates went swimming. i went soaking. and after some squadmates went to giant at IMM to buy stuff, we started tanning and we lied in a straight row, looking like some bimbos but nevermind. then we went in, bathe and i took out a book while squadmates watched i not stupid too.

maams came at ard 6 and atmosphere became quite gan1 ga4 but anw, we went to the back and played badminton and ju came up with lots of funny positions and zhiyi took them down to make a xie3 zhen1 ji1.

then zhiyi taughted me how to play mahjong.and i played from 7 - 12. then squadmates dunno go where and some stayed behind while i bathed. its bad to bathe so late but i was sticky. then after i came out, ju went in and i slacked around and play some games but later after squadmates went to sleep, i went back to the mahjong table to see ppl play. during that time, i was nice and taught jie qi how to play, so i became jieqi's shifu and zhiyi became zu3 shiye.

after that, some squadmate went to sleep and let me play and i played tong3 xiao3 till five. yinhwee and i went to sleep outside at 5 and i managed to catch some sleep till 5.30. yinhwee is very nicce because she got me a towel when she got herself one and it was cold mind you! and there were mosquitoes!

we went it at 5.30 and it was freezing inside because of the air con and we had to sleep on the floor. i gave up at ard 5.45 and went to play badminton with huishan and zhiyi. we ended at 6.30 and went to look for yuan han before we talked till tian1 liang4. after that i went to eat breakfast and play mahjong and waited for 11 o'clock for sqms to go bowling. i din want to bowl and so i swam with ju and huishan. then i bathed and went in to get something to eat. maams were playing mahjong. and we wasted our time and my stomach started hurting and i slepy on the bed and i finally went home at 6. dd came to fetch me.

reached home, i ate, and i slept at 7 till 9 this morning. its alot but i was tired. i went back to chalet to give the folder with the receipt and so to yinhwee and i stayed there and watched princess diaries 2 and played few rounds of mahjong and we went home at 12. i missed the first 188 and took the second one with estella in it. we talked alot and she was on her way to lot 1 to watch movie with sheila, wing yau, ren syn and melissa. and i accompanied her to cck and walked with her to find ren syn and i went back to take bus home.

i went to greenridge to look at cds and came home soon after. i reached home at 13 45.

i am happy.

nobody ever understands how much i wish i could stay over for 2 nights at squad chalet. its not just anything to me. really. it saves me alot of trouble and i just want to be there, with my squadmates. is it really that difficult a wish to fufill???

i know, my mum is worried for my safety, my character development, etc. i know, i understand, but how do i balance the maturity i should show and my great desire to be part of my squad. it is not that i am ostracised by my squadmates or something, but its just this desire, this want to be part of everything they do.

i never had any friends this close since i was in primary 4. friends i can talk to about anything. these people arent just normal friends. they are part of my life. even though me and ju are like always quarrelling, i can surely say, ju is still one of my closest friend compared to any other ppl. =D

ah sigh. owells. i am going to go prepare for squad chalet already.

i am happalighted.

hahahahaha! science is OVER!!! wahahahaha. i finished the paper at 9.47 and didn't check. at 9.47, chem paper had 3 blanks and bio had 4. physics was all done. after 5-8 minutes of internal conflict on whether to leave it like that or not, courage won and said: "people who leave blanks in exams are nuo4 fu1-s" and i am not a nuo4 fu1 so i answered all the questions in the end with crap answers. ms chng will faint if she finds out that my cytosine became cytomine and guanine became gynine. hahaha....

after science paper, i escaped from class to look for squadmates and i saw ms yeo on the way and i greeted her and she smiled and i smiled back. then she asked me to look for joanne cos joanne is a bad girl(ms yeo didn't say this!!! i did.) and did not hand in AMC thing thing and so i looked for joanne and i found her in her class. we went to maths dept but ms yeo wasnt there. turned out that she was in 204. so we went to 204 and i left with squadmates.

now i am free. yesterday slept at 2 o clock but i am not tired at all. no not at all. xD i am going to pack my table later. it filled with mixed notes. mixed notes is notes with all kind of subjects in it. and i will dump everything into the storeroom. yes. that is what i will do. really. i promise!

dd is sick! and he didnt go to work today. and he still eat cuttlefish and never go and rest. then he drink coffee. how can he do this to himself. and worst of all is that he dun want to fetch me home from school when he can drive and i cannot. that is not fair.

squad chalet is tmr!!!! i cannot wait. my squadmates bring colour to my life.

all down. EOYs ended. 1 more night to squad chalet.

today is quite good a day. i finished studying all 3 topics. managed to catch the essence of balancing equations.

just went to sheng siong. i was just thinking, would there be any other sec 2 NY girl like me, going out just before their science exam and not getting worried at all. i must be thinking my exams over. and i met a cat. when i was having dinner at a coffee shop. i jumped out of my seat, but my dd instead of saving me by chasing away the cat, scolded me saying that i should sit down. darn cat.

i will pass my exam tmr. really.

squadmates, i bought a huge packet of mamee and i am gonna bring it to chalet. i will take one packet out and there will be left with 39 packets. then each one of us will take 3. =D

1 more exam to go. just tmr. jiayou jomain!!! 2 days to squad chalet.

i can do it and i will.

i am happalighted. i spent the whole of today studying science, chemistry and biology, with my new da4 chang2 jin1 sound track booming in my ears. i like 'The Legend Becomes History'

its very meaningful and it questions life and love:

lifetime is the ends to remember
still i say wonder why,
wonder why, we are born into this lives to die
sigh lie as i bleed from the future
he's a ray of light
ray of light, like the first dream of sun from the sky

see, your love is a peace of mine
life is a vale of tears the moon
scatters great flakes of the crying
love is a lost sea in history
the legend becomes history


its a really nice song. =D

i am feeling very accomplished. tonight i will do physics, and i will spend tmr revising.

i got my jiejie to sit down with me to teach me chem. and i can now balance equations properly and well. and i managed to learn alot from my jiejie's chem o level guidebook. its better than all my notes put together. at least it explains things properly. i got to know that relative atomic mass is very easy to count one.

and after i finished bio, i realised that mensuration menstruation occurs on the first day of the menstrual cycle and not the 15th. i thought like mooncake festival like that one leh. to think i have been through this for like what 6 years X 12 months = 72 times!!!! what kind of an owner of my own body am i???

there is a lion dance troupe near my house and they are so loud. how i wish i can da ba4 as loud as them. wonder if they will suffocate in this haze.

i am going out later, to buy clothes for my grand uncle's son's wedding, which in other words is my mother's cousin's wedding which again in other words is my grand cousin's wedding. i am wearing something feminine for once since i was 7. but not that feminine anw, its still pants. i totally refuse to wear a skirt.

2 days to end of EOYs, 3 days to start of squad chalet.

i am blogging now cos i din get to blog yesterday. i went to watch movie and came back at 12 and the internet wouldnt work and so i thought i would blog today, first thing in the morning.

yesterday was maths. in the morning i was quite worried but after i got the paper i realised there wasnt anything very difficult in the paper and i could do all the qns other than the bonus and i chose option 2 for qn 14. so, it went quite ok and i managed to finish the paper 15 minutes before and had time to check. actually i could have finished earlier but i slowed down unintentionally at the back from ard qn 9-14 because i reached qn 9 at 08 36. and i had 2 more hours to finish 6 qns. i finished qn 12 at 0945 and i got worried cos i thought must draw graph but in the end i chose to do mensuration.

after that i went to bai4 po3 po2 because it was the 15th day of lunar eighth month. which is mooncake festival and my po3 po2's death anniversary. and we went all the way to mandai and back. we took a taxi back and i alighted near my primary school and i walked home the same way i used to 2 years ago and how i wished i was still in primary school.

after that i went home and indulged myself in da4 chang2 jin1. i am going to watch it from the start again after monday. 2 more days. jiayou jomain.

i went to watch ROB-B-HOOD and it was so funny. and touching also. you dunno what wonders a baby can do. everyone should go watch. i am acting as if i have no more exam.

squadmates, i have got the moon and my mum allowed me to stay over for 1 night. i tried to persuade her but she said:

do not ask for the sky when you have gotten the moon.

and i am regretful. really regretful. i am feeling regretful at my inability to risk it all, including my moon, to get the sky.

and i cut my hair again. i am not going to attempt to let it grow long already because my cca does not allow my hair to be in guo4 du4 shi2 qi1. meaning that my hair cannot be half long because touch the collar must tie up, touch the eyebrow must pin up and so i decided to wait until i pass out than say which is another 2 years later.

oh, and i bought a da4 chang2 jin1 soundtrack. i am so happy. and i bought a toy too. counter four!

5 down, 1 to go. 2 days to end of EOYs. 3 days to start of squad chalet.

i will pass my exams and do well even.

i will pass my geography. really. it went really well. i did qn 3 & 4 and basic map reading lost 1 mark liao. they ask for food SOURCE and i gave the food. so dumb. my qn 3 & 4 very short and i scribbled all over my paper to remember the points. lalala. 5, 5, 6, 4, 3, 4, 5.

i went to look for ms yeo to give her the money for the AMC and i couldnt find joanne and so i couldnt tell her to give it to Ms Yeo and i couldnt find melissa either so i asked deborah to call her and tell her. and i went to GO with bernicelin and soggy to return class key and we met grace and wenqi and yixian at the bus stop and wenqi took 67 with me bernicelin and soggy.

on the bus, i noticed something written in malay.

Sila serahkan tempat duduk ini kepada orang tua atua orang cacat

so i read it. Reading what i learnt in conversational malay, it bacame like this:

Sila serahkan tempat duduk ini kepada orang tua atua orang cacat

which in direct translation means 'please sit this people people disable'. which in indirect translation means 'please sit on the disabled people.'

oh i swear i am getting lamer and lamer by the day. my jokes are getting colder and colder.

bernice and i took 67 all the way to cck and we bought ice-cream from macdonalds. before that i asked bernice, "early in the morning got ice cream anot?" bernice said she would ask and she started phrasing... "er, early in the morning do you sell ice cream?" i told her that was not a nice way to ask and she rearranged the words... "er do you sell ice cream early in the morning?" and i told her it doesnt sound very polite either and i told her to ask "do you sell ice cream now?" and she agreed and they did sell ice cream and so we bought it. on the way back to take 190, we were creating words when we saw melody. she went 'hi' very loudly and so we 'hi'-ed back. and we went on creating words.

today's creation:

happalighted -- when a person is happalighted, he or she is experiencing very mild happiness.

bernice reminded me to blog about this:

NOTICE

for class chalet:

1. bernice gets to sleep on the sofa because she has been my friend for very long.

2. my star group gets to sleep on my bed and i will sleep on my parents bed because my parents will be going to chalet.

3. because my star group is sleeping on my bed, joleen will be the only one in the storeroom and she might get scared and so she gets to sleep in the living room.

4. grace gets to sleep on the sofa too cos she said i was nice.

thats all the changes made today. haha.

4 down, 2 to go. 4 more days to end of EOYs. 5 more days to squad chalet.

i will sleep early tonight. Ms Yeo told me to and so i will. =)

chinese is OVER. i am so happy. everything went well today. i woke up, drank my usual dose of chicken essence and went to school. squadmates are all talking about squad chalet.

chinese paper ONE. i had time to finish and my compo was quite good. i ended up writing narrative instead of expository which i thought i would write but there is no such thing other than bao4 zhang1 bao4 dao3 with which i did not want to take my chances so i didn't do it. i did the Q4. instead. i finished a good 5 minutes beforehand and looked through to make sure it was good and i handed it up!

recess i gave away $$35 to zhiyi and i feel heartbroken but its for good cause and fun so i gave it willingly. i sound so sad. but anw, i ate and i was nice and i sat with 207 after i sat with squadmates. they split up into two, as in those i mix with and so i had to sit with both. i sat with sok liuyi they all first and was kind for 2 minutes. then i sat with grace they all and they said they feel second-handed and i told them they were third. i feel so mean.

then i went back to class and got ready for paper TWO. i finished the da4 chang2 jin1 passage first and i laughed at it. the minute i saw it i was smiling... i read the passage before! though i cannot confirm that i will get all correct. as in i read the first half before(at least it was similar to what i read brfore), the second half was a bit random. half the class thought of me when they read the passage. i feel so honoured. xD

i did summary first as usual before i did the last compre and i finished like 15 minutes before but YIWEI DIDN'T FINISH THE PAPER!!!! i feel like mudering her. lucky she listen to me and do summary first. can you imagine her losing 20 marks just like that??? and i left the class and went home. but after i reached the bus stop, i realised i didn't bring my wallet and so i had to go back and on the way i saw sok and i pulled her back with me. she kept saying: "you good lor, left you wallet in class and just pull me like that. "

then i went to the busstop with her and i promised to take 67 with her but siewying waited for us and so we went to the bus stop together. then 67 came first and we took 67. on the bus, we talked about handphone covers and how sok has a gooey handphone cover and i said to her:

Jomain: i want one too, bring me go buy.
Sok: ok, holidays we go and buy.
Jomain: dun want, holidays i want to sleep.
Sok: so lazy.
Jomain: immediately after EOYs i cannot i go squad chalet.
Sok: then how? you want me to go to your chalet, bring you go buy then fly you back???
Jomain: yeah
Sok: too bad, i cannot.
Jomain: but just now you say you can.
Sok: no, just now i ask you you want anot, i never say i can.
Jomain: you cheat my feelings.....

anw, we went on to talk about about chalet and i tell her that 207 should have a sleepover. and at where??? my house. i even got the sleeping arrangement all figured out.

NOTICE

sleeping will be in index order for easier administration purposes. people can mutually swap with people to sleep with whoever you want to sleep with provided both parties agree. but for reg no 1-3, 19-21, 35-36, i think will be very difficult. hahaha.

plan goes as follows:

1-3 in my daddy's toilet.
4-5 in my daddy's walk-in-wardrobe
6-13 in the masters bedroom (no 12 is special and gets to sleep on the bed. the rests will sleep on the floor in their sleeping bags.)
14-18 in my jie jie's room
19-21 in the storeroom(you get to lock your door and you are the safest cos the storeroom is the bomb shelter.)
22-30 in the living room
31-34 in the kitchen
35-36 in the kitchen toilet

Disclaimer: the above is solely used for 207 entertainment purposes and will not come true. Also, it is not a show of my biasedness against anyone in the class because it really is in index no.

haha. sok was laughing all the way on the bus.

i am so amusing.

3 down, 3 to go. 5 days to end of EOYs. 6 days to start of squad chalet.

i will pass. and i will do well.

language arts today was good. chicken essence really helps! buy BRANDS chicken essence for better quality in exams. if you got money, buy everyday also can!

before paper ONE, Mrs Koh saw me outside the class and we started a conversation.

Mrs Koh: How are you feeling??
Jomain: Very good!
Mrs Koh: Good about exams?
Jomain: yeah. i will pass!

hahah. i realised that after EOYs started, i keep saying that i will pass. anw, my paper one was not that very good. i wrote expository. i spent 25 minutes writing it. finished my compo at 8.25 a.m. Logically speaking, i could have had alot of time to do my unseen but i counted the words for my compo and i spent 10 minutes doing it. now i think about it i feel quite dumb. anw, my compo is 476 words long and i had a good sense of security after that. anw, i started my unseen at 8.35. and you know what happened??? i spent 10 minutes reading the prose and 25 minutes annotating it. i keep doing dumb things. i started my first qn at 9.05 and finished it at 9.35 because its very long and i keep dunno how to start. so my first (a) qn was 1 and a 1/2 pages long but the second (b) qn was only 1/2 a page long. Mrs Koh will kill me.

then after first paper, i went to look for ms yeo and i went with Joanne and we waited for a while then realised that ms yeo was in the room. and we took the AMC cert from her and went back to class.

second paper. quite ok. my hand writing very nice throughout. but the summary, i actually want to re-write de but i write until half-way no time le so i tore it up. anw, i only cancelled 1 line out because of one word and so its lookable and so i handed it up.

i then gave out the certs and went home soon after. i took 171 with bernicelin who i suspect is going mad. but anw, i still took the bus with her. i went to plaza and bowrrowed chinese books so that i could change my mentality to chinese. i always do that before chinese exams.

theni went to my mummy's office and came home at 2. reached home at 2.30 and i slept. and alot of people keep calling when i sleep. ard 5 something huiying called and i think i sounded really sleepy. so malu. she told me about revision paper and i will remember to ask the class about it.

i watched 'better halves' and decided that after EOYs i will buy it and watch it over again.

2 down, 4 to go. 6 days to end of EOYs. 7 days to start of squad chalet.

i will do well. i will pass my EOYs well.

history today, was not that hard.

in fact it was easy. but i would have prefered the SEQ colonialism qn to be on the straits settlements. but anw, i wrote long long answers to short short qns. was a nice paper other than the fact that my hand refused to cooperate and i could writes nice, beautiful fast answers. when i turned my head after the paper cos i din have time to turn it during the paper, i saw horrendous writing that was unreadable.

i pity the teacher who is going to mark the last qn. cos thats where all the writing goes screwed. for me i managed to maintain my writing to readable state but the words just grew BIGGER.
i did my SEQ first, then my SBQ. cos i figured that the last qn of my SEQ is worth more than the last qn of my SBQ. so i did SEQ first. aiyah, i just like to do things like that. i do the back first then the front.

1 down, 5 to go. 7 days to end of EOYs. 8 days to start of squad chalet.

i will pass history.

oh my squadmates, i just quarrelled with my sister over squad chalet because i wanted to stay over but my sis dun want because she say its unfair because she din get to. but my mother finally agreed to let me stay overnight one night but i might be able to convince her again. though the probability is small.

if i can stay one night, which night would yall prefer???

anw, my today afternoon was wasted cos we went to the expo despite my exam tmr and went to some funny children's carnival for my cousins to play. and obviously i was too YOUNG to play there. i am like what? 4? or 14??

then we wasted more time at the seLect food court and i tried to study but din work. but before that on my way there, i got my malaysian auntie's husband to go over malaya's history with me and it helped quite alot. and my gu-zhang was so good with the dates. he almost killed me when i said that malaya got independence in 1959. its 1957, not 59. sigh.

i am confident i will pass history tmr. i studied alot 3 days ago till now. i will pass and i will do well. i promise.

1 more night to start of EOYs. 8 days to end of EOYs. 9 days to start of squad chalet. i am so excited. =)

oh i havent blogged for erm, 1 day and its because of the following reasons:

1) the internet connection always dun work, when i can play.
2) i have been a really good girl, and studying history in my room.

therefore, i din blog. but i want to write about this very gross incident i saw at the market yesterday morning. wenqi, if you are reading this, i suggest you dun go on....

PAUSE FOR WENQI

ok, i went to the market with my mummy ytd because i was getting stuffed to death because of my history and so i went to tou4 tou4 qi and something like that. then my mummy wanted to buy chicken to cook chicken curry and she went to buy it and i followed her. and she told the uncle that she wanted 1 chicken, qu4 pi2. and the uncle chop the chicken up so very grossly that i was grossed out. but the curry tasted nice. xD

then in the afternoon, the wind was very big. so my clothes peg couldnt take the energy exerted on it and it decided to want to break. my meimei saw it threatening to break but she had to ponder for like 2 minutes before she decided to try and save her pe tee shirts and my mummy's towel. but when she tried to save it, the pegs(4 clothes pegs) decided to give way and her pe tees dropped to the 15th level and my mummy's towel dropped to the 12th.

so we waited for my dd to go and sleep before we tried to save it because my dd will nag and scold about how dangerous it is to stick your head out of the window, but we still did it anw.

we erm, used nylon, tied together with twine and a hook and we hooked up all her tee shirts and the towel as well.

lalala. yesterday was so cool.